we're all home...

First, I just want to extend such thanks and appreciation to all who have commented and emailed. Your prayers and support have meant so much, and to be able to yak all this and receive such warmth and care was so touching. Again, thank you all from the bottom of my heart!

So... Thea had a complex migraine. That has to be it, because every other test (seemed they did all under the sun) came up normal. Her brain and heart, perfect. Nothing odd from the lumbar puncture, CT scans clear except for one small bone spur that isn't impinging on her spinal cord. The neurosurgeon, who called her migraine hemiplegic, didn't think that needed to be addressed, unless at a later time she notices pain/weakness on one side. He even drew us a picture on Friday night, the only abnormality she seems to possess...

Except now for a penchant towards migraines, hearty little suckers at that.

big Huge SIGH.... She's fine, just fine...

The last two days have been strange, in so many ways. My life, usually quiet, has known crises in the past, plenty of them; maybe why my writing is so angsty, I know it well. But nowadays it's staggered, much time between issues arising, and that is GREAT! This last week, good, bad and just plain ugly coming withing 10 days, good grief! I don't do that concentrated crap so well anymore. And to be completely honest, nothing in my life, not even losing my brother, NOTHING has ever scared me as much as being told my daughter might have had a stroke.

Nothing...

Was it the sheer helplessness, or the deeper knowledge of what it would have meant to her... Something so physically debilitating, the mind fully aware of what faculties have been compromised...

But she's fine. Just fine. A sweep of equipment over her skull, down her throat, examining and probing, revealing all is well. She's fine. Fine. What a strange word. Fine, as in not damaged. Not faulty. Not harmed or hurt, aching or broken. Fine. Like china, so precious and fragile and fine.

Bones and brain, heart and arteries, all fine.

She starts her last two GE classes on Tuesday, and we'll head north tomorrow. I'll spend a few nights, just to make sure. She wasn't exactly thrilled by that (however Bud was, his relieved voice expressing joy that it wasn't all going to immediately fall on HIS head!). But I am her mum, and with Jay down to the last days of school, I can take a couple of days and confirm all is fine, see some loved ones too, still issues hanging out there. But this one, so swift in coming, yet after procedures and prodding, poking and pricks, Thea only had a migraine. A WHOPPER of one, auras and everything, but manageable. She won't be able to drink (doesn't anyway, no drugs either, and I could swear that neurologist wanted to roll his eyes at us, when asking, time after time, if she imbibed...), will have to avoid chocolate and birth control pills (although something Bob printed off the internet said BC pills are sometimes used for migraines... Hmm... Will have to investigate) but otherwise, just watch for those auras... No auras please!!

And now, I have laundry to check. Yes, I'm back home, and all is well....